I had it in my mind that this blog was long gone. It's not! And even more of a surprise: I wrote in it pretty recently. Almost two years ago but that seems pretty recent because when I think of my blog(s) I think of high school and first year of university. I guess I'll keep leaving and coming back. Or coming back and leaving.

Anyway, I'm glad it's still around. As embarrassing as it is to see what I was really thinking or feeling; no hiding who I am from who I would want to be or seem. This year is shaping up to be an interesting one in a quiet way. Sure there's my Paw Paw's death and the reintroduction of my dad (and so, Joan) into my life. But the quieter changes are more dramatic for the long-run, I suspect. Changing plans and acknowledging things about how I deal with other people, make decisions, and basically am. I was pretty negative for a while, which was a change for people around me. I didn't like them worrying but it was all I wanted to talk about. Disillusionment was what I felt but now I'm starting to see that feeling disillusioned can mean just the opposite is going on. Then again, I'm sure that has to do with the fact that I finally found jobs for the new year and have something "going on" again. Oh well. Lesson still learned. I'm happy to be back.